First post using Mac!

March 28, 2007

Had a few minutes to spare today in a Mac Lab, so decided to type a short blog!

Hmm, while not getting into the top 8 is a relief of sorts (no more burning of midnight oil trying to read about cartoons, politicians and schools), I feel strangely empty. Haiz… hope we can get into top 15 for scrabble… and BC oratorical… and PESA… and whatever…

work is still normal. rushing out work that I owed. Terrible…. argh…

Dance… still fun! Belly belly belly dancing! LOL… should I 1) do more belly dancing 2) switch back to salsa or 3) pick up something new???


for my students (both past and present)

March 22, 2007

Dear students… though you wouldn’t get to read this as this blog is pretty much my private domain… I just wanna say this to you, for you are my pride and joy.

To my first graduating batch (you’re the ’03 batch), many of you are now in uni, in NS, or have graduated from poly. Heard from JM recently, really glad that he’s going to uni after his NS. Suddenly, I realised that you’re not my babies anymore. You’ve got your lives planned out, your education and career charted out. Yet, to me, you’d still be my students forever.

To my first graduating form class (you know who you are… you’re the ’04 batch), been reading XY’s blog, and recently got back in touch with her. Was pretty surprised when some of you contacted me about a class gathering late last year – didn’t expect to be remembered. Some of you would have got your ‘A’ level results recently. Heard that some of you did really well! Do keep up the 8’ttitude spirit!

To my last form class in my first school (you’re the ’06 batch) you’re my beary favourite class! Will never forgive you for the “mama bear” thingy though. I miss you bears lots, though I had to leave before you graduated. I still remember the first day of school when you had your differences. I still remember your tears, your laughter. I remember when I had to comfort some of you who had quarrelled, and when NC came to me sheepishly when his basketball was confiscated when the P saw him trying to kick it up to 4th floor! My dear bears, I know you people have the ability to go far, so do set your sights beyond what you are looking at, for you (and I) know you can go wherever your dreams take you!

To those in the photography club, you’ve been a fantastic lot. It’s a “siong” CCA – I remember we took pictures for almost all the school events, and I remember going to Little India and Arab Street and the Science Centre! For me, it was something I had just picked up, and I was keen to share. I know HM did well for her As, and JM is thinking about doing bridal photography. I hope that you can all keep in touch with each other, and go further in this area. =) And JM, I will remember you if I ever get married! Remember to keep that day free, ok? And KL, you have the potential to be a good photographer and a good leader. You’re mature beyond your age. And H, I admire your tenacity and determination, and I’m glad you’ve decided to join us then!

To my Debate Students (JG ’07), though I tear my hair out (and yours too) in the weeks we’ve worked together, I must really say I really really enjoyed working with you. Honest, despite saying that I will never want boys, and if I happen to have boys, I’d never name my boys after you people, I’ll be very proud if my children (if I have any) turn out like you. You’re dynamic, independent, team workers, helpful, humourous, and you carry yourselves well. Speaking well adds to the list of accolades that I can heap on you. To A, you’re definitely more experienced than me, and you do see far into your role. I’m really impressed by you – you’re a good debater and will make a good coach – you’ve shared a lot with me and with your juniors! To J and K, I know you are balancing many things on your plates. Studies, CCA, leadership roles, and now debate. It’s not easy, but I see you learning to cope with the extra demand on your time. To H, it’s been hard on you to deal with the disappointment. I feel that you have the ability to debate – that’s for sure. Do try to get into this area in your post sec education. You’ve the skills, all you lack now is the chance to shine! To N, I feel that you’ve definitely improved since you joined us. Do continue to learn to think critically and to speak well! And finally, to W. You’re always so cool, but I know that beneath that calm demeanour, you do care deeply. It’s pretty obvious when we talk about debates and the motion. You have many ideas and you can put it across, which is what debating is about! Debating is a demanding activity that imposes its wants on your time, your energy, and your emotions. Certainly a fun and engaging activity, and yet, I must say, I’ve grown to love and hate it in the past 2 months or so. But… I am really proud of all of you. And I hope that you’ve gained something beyond arguing about cartoons, term limits and SS/CE schools so far!

Okay… I will end here for today. There’s still many many more whom I’m really proud of. For some, I know who you are, but sadly, I never got to work with you, and sigh, never figured out your names. And of course, to balance things off, there’s been many many disappointments too. Some have left school due to negative influences, others have opted to give up on themselves and their studies. Yet some others chose to wreck their own futures by going against our society’s norms of acceptable behaviour. But for those of you who’ve made it, or are making it, I’m proud of you, whether you remember me 🙂

713 days to go…

March 18, 2007

Hmm… 9 days of leave almost over…

Let’s see what I did over the past 9 days…
– meetings
– remedials
– debate stuff
– rehearsal
– fishy birthday celebration 🙂

Now, let’s see what I said I wanted to do but didn’t do… *drumroll*
– shoot ubin
– sort out photos
– go dancing
– meet up with YR
– meet up with YL
– tidy up room
– exam papers, remedial stuff
– read
– practice belly dancing
– and the list goes on… and on… and on… and on… and on…

Anyway, some highlights… esp since I haven’t been updating for a while…

1. Dinner with fishies
Dinner with the 3 fishies is always fun! Lots of laughter, lots of food, kopi and suanning… This combination never fails 🙂 Thanks to V, KP and WM for the wonderful close to 5 hours we spent together. We must do it again soon, k?

2. Exhibition debate at Library@Orchard
Interesting debate on the relevance of books and multimedia by Singapore schools team 01 vs 07. Only problem was… at the end of the debate, they were still discussing about the definition of multimedia! Gosh… is digitised text a form of multimedia? The ’01 team made a good point though, never to ask your opponent a question in a rebuttal! They might just agree. Overall, I would say that while the debate wasn’t very well prepared one (the ’01 team was discussing behind me at cafe galileo at 1:45 for a 2 pm debate!), it was entertaining and accessible!

3. Skipped belly dance class 3

4. Interschool Debates
The results have been somewhat disappointing. We lost the first 2, by very narrow margins of 1.95% and 0.5%. Was like… hello?? that’s like less than any confidence interval that statisticians accept, and we can be pronounced the losing team!?!? argh… one more to go for preliminaries… our last chance…


March 18, 2007


I am hereby officially tendering my resignation as an adult. I have decided I would like to accept the responsibilities of an 8 year-old again.

I want to go to McDonald’s and think that it’s a four star restaurant.

I want to sail sticks across a fresh mud puddle and make a sidewalk with rocks.

I want to think M&Ms are better than money because you can eat them.

I want to lie under a big oak tree and run a lemonade stand with my friends on a hot summer’s day.

I want to return to a time when life was simple, when all you knew were colors, multiplication tables, and nursery rhymes; but that didn’t bother you because you didn’t know what you didn’t know and you didn’t care. All you knew was to be happy because you were blissfully unaware of all the things that should make you worried or upset.

I want to think the world is fair; that everyone is honest and good. I want to believe that anything is possible.

I want to be oblivious to the complexities of life and be overly excited by the little things again.

I want to live simple again.

I don’t want my day to consist of computer crashes, mountains of paperwork, depressing news, how to survive more days in the month than there is money in the bank, doctor bills, gossip, illness, and loss of loved ones.

I want to believe in the power of smiles, hugs, kind words, truth, justice, peace, dreams, the imagination, mankind, and making angels in the snow.

So, here’s my checkbook and my car-keys, my credit card bills and my 401K statements.

I am officially resigning from adulthood. And if you want to discuss this further, you’ll have to catch me first, cause. . .

“Tag! You’re it.”


March 18, 2007


by Crystal Boyd

We convince ourselves that life will be better after we get married, have a baby, then another. Then we are frustrated that the kids aren’t old enough and we’ll be more content when they are.

After that, we’re frustrated that we have teenagers to deal with. We will certainly be happy when they are out of that stage. We tell ourselves that our life will be complete when our spouse gets his or her act together, when we get a nicer car, are able to go on a nice vacation, when we retire. The truth is, there’s no better time to be happy than right now. If not now, when?

Your life will always be filled with challenges. It’s best to admit this to yourself and decide to be happy anyway.

One of my favourite quotes comes from Alfred D. Souse. He said, “For a long time it had seemed to me that life was about to begin – real life. But there was always some obstacle in the way, something to be gotten through first, some unfinished business, time still to be served, or a debt to be paid. Then life would begin. At last it dawned on me that these obstacles were my life”.

This perspective has helped me to see that there is no way to happiness.

Happiness is the way. So, treasure every moment that you have and treasure it more because you shared it with someone special, special enough to spend your time… and remember that time waits for no one.

So, stop waiting…
until you finish school,
until you go back to school,
until you lose ten pounds,
until you gain ten pounds,
until you have kids,
until your kids leave the house,
until you start work,
until you retire,
until you get married,
until you get divorced,
until Friday night,
until Sunday morning,
until you get a new car or home,
until your car or home is paid off,
until spring, until summer,
until fall, until winter,
until you are off welfare,
until the first or fifteenth,
until your song comes on,
until you’ve had a drink,
until you’ve sobered up,
until you die,
until you are born again

…to decide that there is no better time than right now to be happy.

Happiness is a journey, not a destination.

Thought for the day:

Work like you don’t need money,
love like you’ve never been hurt,
and dance like no one’s watching.

724 days to go…

March 7, 2007

Sometimes, things can go up to an incredible high and go down to impossibly deep ravines in the course of a single day… haiz… time to reconsider certain things? Option A, B, C, or wait and see?

726 days to go…

March 5, 2007

Been meaning to check this out… a dream I woke up with on my birthday in which I overslept and missed all my appointments on Saturday… lunch with friend, dance class, tea with friends and a work dinner…

To dream that you oversleep and miss something important means that you are (at least subconsciously) worried that you will miss one of your responsibilities and will have to deal with the consequences.

Now, which of the responsibilities I missed that I’m worried about? hmm………